clean

Today I came home, to my own skin

And I found that I had finally washed you out of every last corner

My flesh no longer remembered the way it swooned under your touch

Or how you pressed it closer to me

Waiting till the day it disappeared

And I came home in the body of a girl you would like to hold

Today I came home

And I wore the shade of lipstick you despised

I slept in the rain

And did not untangle the wars from my curls

I conceded to myself

I told the soft parts of my body

That they could stay

They have nowhere else to go

You were the only one that had to leave